Alone.....

Sometimes i wonder what it means to be alone? Sometimes you just stand in a crowded room n everyone rushes past.. the world is spinning with colours and activity and yet you are not moving. You are alive, you're breathing and yet you feel detached. In this world full of lights n sounds it is like a bystander taking a peek through a glass window , to the other side. You are so close yet so far- separated by an unseen barrier. It is like the air that you cannot see but you feel it and you know its there because your very existence is proof of that. But the loneliness is hampering... the buzz of life is muted and distorted into a big blur as it just whizzes past. Time does not wait for you. If you fall in this big bad world, you pick yourself up. If you do not u are left behind in the mad rush to go forward--- forward where? no one knows... even if the future is a big unknown we still rush blindly into it hoping for something better because it just can't get any worse, or can it? Maybe somehwere we condition ourselves to the world. To just accept and adapt as best as we can. Like how Pavlov conditioned his dogs to consider painful stimuli as pleasure. Its just a matter of conditioning... and practice..... conforming or maybe adaptation sounds much better?

It's like survival of the fittest. You never knew how dark and lonely it was out there until you stepped out of the comforting reccesses of your home. And yet is anyone ever truly alone? Because there will always be someone waiting for you, even if you do not know it, family, friends... I think thats where God comes in too... Because somewhere I remember He promises "..And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."(Matthew 28:20) Also "Come near to God and he will come near to you." (James 4:8) Thus i can infer that He is there for us always but in order to get comfort we need to draw near to Him too. Its a 2-way thing... loneliness maybe is just a state of mind...coz how can a person be truly lonely unless they choose to isolate themselves? .... and maybe i think too much................ ---- can't help it if i like complicating the little things of life :p