Stressful days...

Man .. my week has just been so busy! Arghhhhh ... starting with Monday i was really nervous about my communication skills filmed interview that afternoon and after the interview i didn't feel any better knowing that i kinda screwed up the whole thing!!! Awkard long silences and messed up questions... sigh.. then 8am lectures on tuesday.. lab preparations...and had my elective that afternoon.. some stuff about how europeans went to india and found the climate awfully hard to live in? did my computer test n failed... which wouldn't have been too bad added on to the fact that i found out that i was balloted out !And now i really don't know what to do? Should i move? Amidst the chaos in my head that night i spent a good two hours at library just transcribing my stupid interview.. which i had to present on wednesday. And all through the process berating myself on how i could have said all that silly stuff and made all those embarassing mistakes!!!!!! Interview presentation on wednesday... another stressful event and another shot at computer test which i thankfully passed.

So yeah.. the days have not been particularly peaceful... i did enjoy the anatomy labs today and on tuesday though.. we were doing some dissection on the neck area.. Today we actually literally sawed the neck off (think "pancung kepala") as well as the head in half in the sagittal plane just so that we could take a look at the structures in the larynx and pharynx. It was good to look at but the sawing was just horrible!! So gruesome... Glad that we don't do that to live patients.. :p

Rest for the weary...

Yay end of 1st week or maybe no-yay.. since it marks one week closer to my finals :p I was kinda worn out i supposed n slept in till "late" which is really amazing coz i dun usually sleep till that close to noon :o ! Today harry potter book 6 came out around 11am i think n yeah about 2hours or so later i was out in town to procure this very interesting albeit "children's" book hehe which with Angela turned out to be a pretty long shopping excursion as we just have the incredible way of being sidetracked all the time!!

Went to the last night of the Getsmart conference thingy tonight n it was great! Talked quite a bit about influence. And i guess its true we may not think that we r doing significant harm or benefit but sometimes little things count and as a whole we r almost undefeatable ! :) What also hit me was the fact that we spend so little time with GOd each day and so much time for ourselves yet always like to expect so much! Boy, i'm really selfish! I have to say there's a long way to go! But small steps...big distances hehe :) n hey its better to be brainwashed to do good than to do evil!

"I am laid low in dust;
preserve my life according to your word.
I have recounted my ways and you have answered me;
teach me your decrees.
Let me understand the teaching of your precepts;
then i will meditate on your wonders.
My soul is weary with sorrow;
strengthen me according to your word."

Psalm 119:25-28

W3dne$d@y~~~~

Hmm 2 1/2 days into lectures already.. i have to say i'm a bit bored... lectures do have a tendency to drive u off to sleep especially if u have to wake up at 7am almost every single day! I can't help but complain a bit :p I had my elective yesterday which was something called European Encoutners in new worlds n old .. its a history elective which i kinda chose coz i thought it might be "interesting" but i guess i should have known better. At the moment i don't really find it particularyly stimulating and it kinda went against my expectations of history like i thought maybe some cultural revolution or sthg but instead its focussed mainly on NZ n esp on healtha issues... sigh..we have to write these 250-300word blurbs just to show our progress or sthg for each "seminar" hehe sounds posh.. n on the spur of the moment i wrote mine at 12am last night.. hehe coz it thought might as well get it over with as i might actually forget the content in a while.. :p

Just to give a brief idea of what i thought it was about, this is an excerpt from my blurb thingy which i think as i wrote it in a semi-conscious state is a bit incoherent .. ;p n i don't really know what my opinion is...

" There was also quite a prevalent belief on the impact of environment as a cause and also cure to disease. There was the idea of miasma – polluted air in areas like swamps, industrial areas and poorer quality environments as the cause of disease like malaria and diptheria. In contrast nature was also advocated as a cure where people went to the seaside, countryside, spas and planted trees in a belief that this aided in health. This is comparable to the practice of alternative medicine in the modern society. The theories are not proven but more based on observations due to the lack of knowledge at the time. Although, the benefits of a good environment may be considered, the idea of miasma seems harder to justify. Miasma is in a way related to the hygiene issues at the time as the need for proper sanitation and clean water was recognized. In modern day, this may translate into the relationship between poor socioeconomic status and health."

hehe ok la... i think i'm unneccessarily lengthening this post.. hehe. oh n about my decision thing i kinda just chose n submitted my choice already yesterday. So now its just up to God where i will end up next year! Just hope for the best n that i won't get balloted out into going to Wellington!

Heralding the end of holidays...

Today's saturday.. n yes i know i have not been partigularly vigilant in updating my blog, but then the week hasn't been that interesting either :p The week was speckled with bouts of shopping, hanging out with some friends, n quite a bit of movie watching with angela.. hehe interestingly enough... Oh n yeah the pipe in our hallway leaked during the big hailstorm yesterday... pretty shocking really just suddenly heard this really loud pouring of water n lo n behold there's a waterfall outside my door... :p

Hehe.. n today when i was going to look for a fren i accidently knocked on the door of her neighbour.. man that was embarassing! Fortunately i do know her neighbour although i realise now the dangers of having a row of identical flats next to each other... hmmmm

Well i guess thats the day... Other than that i'm still in a dilemma about a certain decision to make.. argh CONFUSION... oh welll... :S

"Show me your ways, O Lord teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me for you are God my Savior And my hope is in you all day long"

Psalm 25:4-5

Phew.... (wipes sweat of forehead) that took a long time to put up n resize the pics from the road trip! n yeah.. i didn't really put all but anyway.. u'll get the story... its on a new gallery which is Gallery 3 on the right side bar, pass = abc as usual.. hehe..

n yeah below is a map of our route ... hehe so all those names won't sound so alien! We started from dunedin - caitlins - invercargill - bluff - kingston - queenstown - arrowtown - wanaka - dunedin .. i kinda vandalised one of the maps (hope Jane doesn't mind :p, but then.. the trips over anyway)

Other than that the day has been quite nice! really nice weather for a change.. still pretty boring n all but i guess just trying to treasure the peaceful moments i have before the pace starts to pick up again. Thank God for great friends n flatmates ! To keep up the good cheer n make life just that bit more fun. :)

"Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines,

though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food,

though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls,

yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my savior."

Habakkuk 3:17-18