Tired....

It's been a long while. Things have changed so much since those student days . Now it's just work work work.... Sigh...l tomorrow is a special day but I don't feel very special . All I get are crude jokes and embarrassing stories... It just sucks. I feel tired. There is too much pressure. Can I just timeout somewhere by myself for a while ?

I want to be left at peace. In the least just lay off on the crude stuff... At most pamper me a bit... Although I think its difficult considering the geography. It's not that I don't want company... It's just I can't take too much of it... It's tiring the expectations, the smiles, the lack of sincerity. I can give u a treat if u want ... If only to appease the rumour mongers ... I feel too tired.

Give me strength, o Lord to rise above earthly whims , and to have the patience and love to handle those around me.

Work work...

Ahh... its been a while since i last updated keke... well i would like to blame it on the poor internet connection really... since the Taiwan earthquake my connection has been going on at the speed of a snail. Its pretty annoying although it has improved somewhat lately. That i suppose is in addition to the fact that i am normally very slack anyway... bumming around .

But actually not bumming anymore... every since school started (well secondary school anyway) i have been doing some temporary teaching for the Form 1 and 2 classes. Its not been too bad... although the standard of English of some students is appalling... I guess I just have to take things slowly depending on which class it is. I'm also teaching 2 classes of civic a week. Boy I have to tell you it is one of the most boring/useless classes i have ever seen... Its a lot of deep stuff like self image... potentional.. etc.... like a cross between Malay and Moral... eek...

Although things aren't too bad now... but i think its gonna be harder next week once the students start handing in their homework ! bleh...

back !

:-) I'm back !... in the steaming heat of Malaysia! waaa.... after 2 days of non-stop airport-ing.. kee.. its nice to be home and get settled in a bit... It seems that some things have changed yet some still remain the same. Home seems the same... just older..but cleaner.. keke.. curtesy of the Indonesian maid we now have. She is pretty useful around the house. My siblings... still as computer obsessed as ever... but they are growing up to be huge! My younger brother is almost as tall as me and my sister is practically my height... and bigger really.. i think i'm moving down the scale... :p

Oh well.. am currently trying to connect to my mIRC server with no real luck! Argh... there goes my anime download... btw.. i have gotten back to watching jap anime since when i was stuck in Kuching airport for 5 hours straight... i just watched like 8 episodes out of sheer boredom.. so now i'm back in the groove.. keke..

Just hoping for cooler days and restful times... i get sleepy at 9++pm... bleh

Things change...

Yay exams over!! I had my practice OSCE yesterday and thats the end it!! keke... Lately i've been doing random stuff that i dun think i would normally do...

For example.. i actually went to class dinner! keke.... on Wednesday! its a pretty big feat for me since i haven't been to a single med event ever.. :-p... n that was just random...

plus... i actually let myself be face-painted! pretty shocking..... eh.. gave my flatmate such a big fright when i got back keke... oh the joy.. :-p

oh well.. i'll just be a lazy bum now...... bye bye...

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Today was a pretty eventful day! First off ... had my practice exam in the afternoon.... was a bit of a waste of study since it was pretty much unexpected stuff and it didn't really matter anyway... keke...

And then celebrated my flatmates belated 23rd b-day! keke... went out to get a cake n out for dinner.... It was pretty random since we managed to get through entire dinner without actually once wishing her happy birthday... n then we went to St Clair.. n after some guilty apologies for 'forgetting'(well pretending that we forgot) we had dessert at a cafe..


The most bizarre thing was that on the way back to the car... my other flatmate who was taking photos.. got a bit left behind n in the rush to catch up with us... her phone slipped out of her pocket and fell into the sea!!!!!!!! (coz we were walking beside the beach and there was a railing with quite a steep drop to where the water level was) oh boy did she freak out.... she actually went down there in the dark ... at high tide to look for the phone.... it was pretty scary.. all dark n we were a bit worried that she would get swept away as she was almost bathed in sea water....
eek....


she didn't manage to find the phone though sadly :-(

We did get home and managed to surprise the birthday girl with cake .. keke.. although it was one costly evening ... for some of us...

And i have to say its the wackiest thing that has ever happened... really... u never think that something like this would really happen in real life would u? not to mention its Halloween today... (plays scary music... )

keke, scary sylvia... >>

Psych?!

Bah!...... depression is making me depressed... Btw.. m in Invercargill now doing Psychiatry mind you .. and trying to finish this case write up about depression and anxiety and its just annoying me. I just can't get the last bit right and its bugging me... erghhhhhhh...... too many stressors...

Yeah.. so what better way to vent then to make all sorts of stupid complaints on my good ol blog :p.. keke... i hate organic mood disorders...

ok nvm...

thats just my annoyed rambling..

bye bye

back to work...

Shadows

Fade in,
Fade out,
Look over,
Look under,
Look through,
What do you see?

Look but not see,
Just shadows,
Insignificant,
Invisible,
Lonely,

Shadows in the dark.